It sucks to feel this way. To feel that you’re not worthy to be someone else’s apple of the eye. To think that you have no right to assume that someone looks at you admiringly. To believe that you deserve nobody’s attention.
I can’t even seem to write my sentences correctly. That’s how bad this makes me feel.
This is the reason why I always force myself to stop assuming, stop thinking about such things, stop welcoming such thougts, ideas, feelings, and even a well-meaning compliment or admiration from someone else.
Because it’s easier to pretend that you never notice such things than to ignore what other people have to say.